Letting Go

I watched a YouTube video today about control. How we naturally feel the need to control things in our lives and may have a difficult time letting go of that control.

I struggle with this, especially now.  Control over my anxiety and depression, control with work, control with my motivation (or lack thereof).  I am also putting pressure on myself to decide what my next steps will be.  Letting go, being in the moment, taking time to not think about these things feels difficult.  

If I'm not productive, contribute financially, put 110% into work then I'm being wasteful.  Living to work, instead of working to live.  How do I change that mindset?

I have options that will allow me time to work on my mental health and motivation but I'm afraid to use them.  Letting go of how I've done things all my life to follow a different path.  It's a different way and different thinking.  I consider myself pretty open minded and I fully support anyone who wants to make positive change for themselves. Why can't I give myself that support?  

What will help me feel better about taking a different path?  My sense of control says to make a plan.  A timeframe to allow myself travel on a different path.  Granted my anxiety grabs it and says I have "X" amount of time left and I need to start TODAY. But if I find a path that gives me joy and less stress then it should be easier to take my first steps, right?

Time to sit down and list the things I enjoy doing.  I hope you take the time to do the same.

Be like a beagle...mindful and in the moment.